suffer+suffer+suffer!!

morning wake up d...omg...damn damn damn!!!!uhm..omos sleep whole day..bt yet stil feel so painful..aixx..=(

29may2009

morning wake up juz saw a msg..gt abit disapointed..hm..i noe things have change,bt yet i still cant let myself to accept it..sumtimes i realy wonder wat is happening right nw..when u hope sumting,it wont come..when u omos 4get it(uhm..mayb juz lying to myself),it suddenly appear sumting tat make u fall into it again..i think..tats wat life is..

nicole n smun

28may2009

me went back to my 'BELOVED' amc..coz wana gv my mui present..so sory to her la..so late juz gv dao her..hope she wil like it la..tis mui gv me a feeling like i realy have a mui..xD

miss heong..my previous chinese teacher..actuali i felt so sorry to her la..last time owiz din complete all her humwork,in the class din listen to her..owiz gv bad face impression to her..bt
then she still can talk talk laugh laugh with me..altough she is zat gan me..

my grandma..she noe me go out again..she say me girls how can b so active..always hiong tau chutt..she wan me macam cousin them owiz guai guai at home,dun juz care bout all thos rough games..hm..want me let go all thos sports is impossible ga,bt i promise u,i will try to b xi mun n girl dit gerla..

EVERYONE HAVE THEIR OWN SECRETS.....
a white lie.....

27may2009..

juz feel like me n grandma talk less d..duno ist me always me facing the phone when she wants to talk with me..den she juz walk away juz scare disturb dao me...i feel so sorry to her..i think i juz cant accept the fact tat she get that illness..i cant even think if sumday she left me..i love my grandma!i dont hope to c her act like ntg bt inside is suffering..hope tat tumour can slowly disappear after eating all thos medc n going in n out of the hospital....popo,u can do it!i love u!

26may2009.....

stil left three weeks n four days stay in ipoh..thinking next time wat wil my life b..juz cum back from kl..juz gt a feeling ...complicating...cant describe..haiz..watever la..dun hope to let her noe im moody again..bring too much trouble to her d..

rainy day.......=(

haiz..feel so tired..realy vv tired d..the worst thing is,me myself oso duno wat m i tiring at!!!tears r flowing out of my eyes..pls let me go...i need freedom..PLEASE!!!!i beg u...