29/03/2010 =)

is my birthday!! xD and is my off day too!haha..morning wake up is so excited coz thinking at night can go eat 'gei xi hor fun' with ethan,lin n chin..><

after got down frm the bed for some time,gt ppl knock my door n said today gt netball match..oMg..how can i go two places at the same time..huu..luckily ethan gt wait for me..(actuali he did not) n that time he juz came to my college..

......still did not noe bout the celebration..until v reach taman jaya park!jon n siang lin suddenly ran out at the car park n swinging a big card at the road side>< i realy shock..haha

after that,v came down frm the car n gather together..they started to pray for me..suddenly two hands came out..andrew n sean !haha..they r here too..is so blessed =)

they gave me a pink big dophin,a glass container with 'uncountable' stars inside,n a cake.. sama je..haha

v went gei xi hor fun thr makan..super nice wei..miss ipoh gei xi hor fun..><>

truly touching n blessed n happy today..!

miss Nicole n Joy..

painful....=(

today so sleepy..morning shift n last night slept so late=( passing report that time almost fall asleep..thinking after work go to watch a movy..tapi i over slept..haha..n ethan pun gt things to do,so plan cancel..cakap pergi esok..hm..x tau la..haha..esok match!wohoo!excitednya..
hm..tadi have some prctise with teamates..den gt ppl ajak us play friendly match..i b center n the other team center player is a guy!the whole game mereka x syiok kita masuk banyak bola..mereka say so much n astract us!ish!somemore push ppl kata x push..make me jatuh n terseliur!WTF!duttttt........huuuuu....
esok morning>< still thinking wana take mc anot...arrgh!

21/03/2010

today i back to my beloved secondary school..haha..talk with teachers waiting the time pass n wait for my mui to 'ponteng' out frm class..haha..have tea with pn.rasila,talk bout many things with her..after tat pass by kahkah's class..seems alot if ppl look out when i da jiu fu with her..crazy..unfriendly face..at last my mui come out!miss her wei..haha..v talk,v take photos..n she gv me a red envolope..i tot qeng tip..haha..inside gt a handmade card!super nice..full of love..haha..thx ya mui! =) love ya!

hearts her lotz!

the pass n now! xD

i have done my RA..quite dissapointed to myself=(

today morning trying to wake up,is so hard 4 me..duno y feel like whole body numb..bt stil manage to wake up to prepare myself for RA..when down level3 wait for tutor..she came so late x apa n yet after i noe who i wana do RA with,she stil wan me to wait bout half an hour..=/
during the interview,i stil gt confidence as i dah biasa talk with a stranger somemore the patient is quite 'talkable'..haha..after that,i did the full observation for her..long time din folow the procedure,my brain that time quite jam..bp,temperature,pulse n respiration..seems to b easy for me,bt my hand n my brain x make so easy for me>< den i get a 'nag' frm ms.kat..tears r juz rolling in my eyes..bt i noe i cant cry..is me myself do wrong,cant blame others..sorry,mskat..i will remember what u told me today..patient life is in our hand,v cant b playful must b serius..


in a sudden felt so lonely><>< em..bt he x continue text me..ish!wat m i thinking..v don't even c each other twice..obviously what i mean,v juz met ONCE!
em..still thinking do v have any chance to be in a relationship?...do he care bout me?anyway..cant get the answer frm here..but i din have that dare to ask him bout that..he seems to b so innocent in love..n din have any potential to in love with someone..
God..pls tel me what to do...

mummy..daddy..i miss u!

working morning today..help two popo toilet bath..whole morning busy till==tiring..bt 12-1 popo quite nice..talk with her while waiting outside Ct scan..haha..her grandson smart n handsome lo..juz habis universiti..geng..haha..anyway..juz 发花痴oni..haha..her family all quite friendly with me><>< with tutor bside xtau i dapat communicate smoothy with patient anot xD


jia you!

nw is 12midnite..in a sudden felt so lonely..feel that im alone again..i have the feeling like im been abandon=='''
andrew text me juz now..asking me okay anot..em..say the truth,im super super x okay!the one hu i wan him n her to text me,they didn't..morning he got text me once,but im too angry den merajuk..after that,he x continue text me d..hate la!
actualy..do v have any chance to be in a relationship..?or i have to chance the question..do i have any chance?what is he thinking right now?do he care bout me?...hm..i think i cant get any answer frm here..anyway..i still din have the dare to ask him..
n impossible is..i juz saw him once!>< oMg..arrgh~ God..can u tel me what i have to do nw....

................arrrgh!

what the hell m i thinking?what the hell r u thinking?what the hell r they thinking????!
shit!ist wana let everyone noe how 'strong' r u n how 'weak' m i,u baru happy??!huh?
nw i stil can control n juz write all in here,one day if i cant control,i duno what will happen..!damn!

terrible terrible terrible=(

aixx..stil gt one hour plus i wana go posting d..my sum qing so terrible like shit!
what happening on earth!?everything goes to her!? pls la wei..dun owiz act stronger den me, responsible den me,work-able den me okay==realy irritating la..!evrytime when i wana voice out,in the end u 'shout' out pulak..hen diao ni zhi dao ma??
........calm down..wan to prepare to work la..have to control..smile=)
~!@#$%^&*

jia you!^^

fun!!!!! xD

juz came back from second round 11march2010..haha..me,shan yong,joy n yih shang went t.t.d.i get some DRINK n v din get DRUNK..haha..
friend night!fun!shawn lee,yeng!'an honest mistake' band,cool!gt chance take photos with them..super friendly n nice..haha..n take photo with keith!wooW!super respect him la wei..haha juz order one jug..coz after tat hv to drive,x blh drink so many><

my cell group leader n my best jie..always miss her=)

ethan=cockroach soh shan yong xD

Keith..the one who always with us while pastor kevin not free with us..respect him!love him too!haha

'an honest mistake' band!super friendly leader!--->Darren =)

hurting people hurts people----thats wat Keith said =)

is been a long day for me..thinking all the attitude i express out today is so damn fucking freak man!the point is i hv done that to joy..hurts her alots..bt i realy cant control..juz feel like so much changes in our cell group..cant feel the warm edi..maybe coz of myself keep avoiding something..i duno...emm..bt after having bible study n the preaching of Keith..i thinks alots..think back what i have done..stupid wei== i decide to say sorry to Joy..sorry..i love u lk my sis bt i cant stand when u r treating others somemore is my besties so good..em..nw i realise the feeling that my godsis told me b4..she hate sharing me with others..em..i noe sound abit selfish,bt thats me..!mui..sorry..last time i x tau tat feeling..lol..v realy act so same..everything..v like v don't like..if u realy my sis..wow..both of us mesti sentiasa gosip together n rampas thing..xD
chat with my grandma on the phone..everyone is so worried bout my tummy..my gastric..em..is quite terrible la..i promise u all,i will learn to take care myself well..don't worry k=)
mummy..no chance talk with u 2day..daddy say u slept d..
today juz noe my roaster..i get off 2ml==FISH CHICKEN COW HORSE!total get 3 days off!aarrgh!bt is too late to buy ticket back hometown..hm..nvm la..after i hv done my RA n serve medc i will find time go back!MUST!